i'm stuck here alone in the traffic lines,

while couples in love in the HOV fly by. Okay, first of all this is the best driving song,saved- by the rocket summer. Anyways, I'm sitting here getting ready to go out and I was caught off guard by how fast everything is happening lately. Once in a while I'll take a step back and be like..wait? I think the stress of this year has taught me extreme time management. And i needed that, or else I'd be drowning right now. It's the crashes on the canadian luge course are a metaphor for my life. Can't take the heat...
What. Too cut throat?

we live and we learn,

to take one step at a time. All things happen with time. This is a hard concept for me to grasp. Not everything has to be planned, or scheduled, or mapped out in a list. I like it. It gives me peace of mind just thinking about it. There is really no point in getting overwhelmed, because everything balances out at some point. So, just breathe.

i could see the city lights,

wind was blowin' time stood still. Vancouver, Canada. This city is so alluring to me. It's everything I want in a city, and it's where I want to be. I almost get jealous with the fact that the Olympics are there because everyone gets to be obsessed with it, like me. Okay, so my sister is moving there so i totally can't even tell her i want to. Or she'll throw out the "stop liking everything i like" comeback that hasn't been used in like 5 years. Don't get me wrong, I only noticed this place when she did..but i still love it. I have to be there. And i will.

and I'm sorry this wasn't easy,

But I had to, believe me. It's funny how more than ever, this year has been filled with a lot of endings. Sometimes people just grow apart for no reason, and that's one of the hardest things to let go of. It's kind of like watching a car crash in slow motion, and not being able to stop it. I think losing a friend is even harder than losing a love. Especially a friend who has been there through the worst stuff. Because when they are gone, you find yourself wondering who's gonna be there next time? Making excuses for why things happened the way they did is pointless. So, I'll take it for what it was. And somehow, I think that will be enough.